What am I supposed to say?
Sometimes I feel like giving up I’m gonna throw it all away
I’m running out of jokes to make
I’ve tried to move but always end up living in a hopeless state
I smile, trying not to show the pain
Paranoid that my friends are annoyed they probly know it’s fake
Feeling numb like Novocain
Introverted out my mind trying not to go insane
I think too much and my action’s almost non-existent
No I act too often without thinking of the consequences
Feeling naucious, livid, this toxic venom is stress
But I guess that’s just the cost of livin’
They don’t get it, it’s not something a quote can fix
Motivation’s overrated I don’t think I can cope with it
I try but I fumble
Dark days and lonely nights with no light in the tunnel
I gotta keep moving
Even tho I keep losing
Even tho I keep losing
I gotta keep moving
I don’t mean to be sounding feeble
But sometimes I feel the most alone amongst a crowd of people
Overanalyzing everything
It’s such a vicious cycle getting stuck inside a memory
And I can’t seem to let it go
Thinking if I could do it over things would be better you know?
I wouldn’t be in the pain I’m in
But knowing me I’d blow it see and probly do the same again
Is this the myth of Sisyphus? Cause if it is
I’m not sure I’ll be able to persist with it
Every morning, a weight on my chest, awake and in bed
Covered by the pain of regret
It’s hard to move into the future
When you’re anchored to the past and always feeling like a loser
I guess I just gotta keep showing up
Cause it’s the only way I’ve got a chance for things to open up
I gotta keep moving
Even tho I keep losing
Even tho I keep losing
I gotta keep moving
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