I want to die deluded, no you don’t
You’ve been working so hard on your legacy don’t drown it keep it afloat
I said deluded not diluted no allusion
I’m not stupid I know what I’m doing... for the most part
The voices congregate trying to reach conclusions
But results are typically full of scattered thoughts and confusion
It’s a daily negotiation
Trying to broker self-defeating behaviors that I be chasing
I cry and plea vocalizing the silent screams
But nothing ever changes, I guess I’ll try to sleep
But now the voices run amuck
So I fabricate sexual fantasies to shut them up
Keep them busy and preoccupied
Every woman I’ve ever met I’ve stuck my cock inside
Am I alive or dead? It really feels like I’m possessed
Get this weight from off my chest perhaps it’s time that I confess
A new day has dawned, but it looks the same
Steady falling behind the horizon it regurgitates
Fumbling through life in a hopeless state
Trying to catch break, but all I got’s a broken leg
A new day has dawned, but it looks the same
Steady falling behind the horizon it regurgitates
Fumbling through life in a hopeless state
Trying to catch break, but all I got’s a broken leg
I’m gonna die deluded
No response, my will is weak and almost gone
At any moment I could fall, clutch the floor begin to crawl
The thrill of life has all been lost, I swear to god holding on
It’s just a phase let it pass, oh thank you for coming back
I don’t know what I would do without you always helping me navigate with no a map
Take a breath, right, baby steps
I got to give it some time to settle and then I’ll be sane again
I really need to get help
So much time inside my head has been decreasing my health
But the voices like the company, to them I’m somebody
I hate to admit it but often this is just enough for me
But you can do better, I know at least that’s what I’m told
But I’m losing grip on my hold the back and forth is getting old
It’s all consuming, where is the solution?
The abyss is infinite and I’m sinking into delusion
A new day has dawned, but it looks the same
Steady falling behind the horizon it regurgitates
Fumbling through life in a hopeless state
Trying to catch break, but all I got’s a broken leg
A new day has dawned, but it looks the same
Steady falling behind the horizon it regurgitates
Fumbling through life in a hopeless state
Trying to catch break, but all I got’s a broken leg
Zambian rapper and producer Abstract Sekai fuses golden era hip-hop with ambient sound design and a heady cosmic philosophy. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 17, 2023
The latest from Singapore rapper/producer enlists a bevy of gifted MCs for a rich & expansive rap LP that explores the idea of mortality Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 6, 2022