Fuck it I’m ‘a end it
At least that’s how I’m feeling at the moment no pretending
How much more can I endure?
I’m tired of all these fucked up thoughts I’m really just unsure
Ain’t no calm before the storm
This natural disaster’s been brewing since I was born
I’m sick of my emotions playing bully
Pushing me to act in shame I hate the way they pull me
It’s not uncommon I want to shut if off
Searching for a bridge over troubled waters I’m jumping off
Skip the wishing stone, implode the Wonderwall
This isn’t just a song, fuck it all, something’s wrong
Feeling like a piece of shit
Manipulated by my biology god it needs to quit
I keep thinking If - no, don’t even it’s
Just a passing phase you should hit the hay and sleep a bit
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
No way to get outside my mind
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
No way to get away from my mind
Feeling uncontrollable
These impulses keep ripping thru me just like a bullet-hole
It’s never not nothin’
Mind in the gutter brain floating in a mop bucket
I don’t think these thoughts are normal
Probably unethical definitely immoral
So many violations
Ranging from perverted to unheard of with a violent nature
There’s no cure, nothing’s going to fix this
So I’m hoping my admission helps me cope with all the symptoms
Cause lately it’s been getting worse
Despite making changes, I guess they didn’t work
I’m running out of options, nothing stops it
I’m hurting at the mercy of this fucking monster
I’m hanging by a thread
Dissatisfied with life but I guess I’ll try again
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